Wednesday, December 28, 2011

There was once a crazy year (3)

It's the hardest and the easiest decision I've ever made-both at the same time. The easiest because when you know what you're created to do and what The King calls you to, it's the easiest decision in the world to simply say "okay, then" and follow. It settles all kinds of dissonance within you. And you can go with confidence- to the ends of the Earth. Literally. The hard part isn't actually in making the changes. It's in the way people tend to react sometimes.

I've decided to commit myself fully and completely to ministry. This is what I hear the Lord tugging me toward. I got to the point with Beth this year where I became aware of how incredibly messed-up I once was and how brilliantly He's turned everything around and how incredibly different and new I am as a result. And in the same moment that I realized that, I realized that this could not all happen without me turning around and being a tool in which others get to encounter the radical transforming power of Jesus Christ. I can't help it. I'm in love and we all know how foolish love can make one act. That being said, I told Jesus I am all in. No more half-butting my time doing ministry. I'm committed-whenever, wherever and however that may be. I told Him 2012 is it. The year I'm determined to dive in. Little did I know what was waiting for me within just a few days.....


1 comment:

BeckyLove said...

Such a good story teller (God and you!)