Sunday, January 30, 2011

This one's big.

This one is hitting so hard I can't even write without bawling. Ready for an amazing thought?....
Guess what? It's okay to struggle & wrestle with God over issues, over our circumstances. Over our life. Not only is it OKAY, but God WANTS us to wrestle the thing out. Think about it. Wrestling with someone is actually pretty intimate. In order to get down & wrestle well, you've got to get right up in the other person's face. At least when we choose the wrestle something out with God we're face to face with Him, locking eyes and keeping our focus & gaze on His every move. 

We can learn some important things from Jacob. He's famous for wrestling with God. They were raw, honest, and face to face. I believe God wants us to learn from Jacob's encounter that if and when we DO wrestle things out with God, we need to continue wrestling and refuse to give up until God gives us a blessing. He promises if we see the issue through, He WILL bless us. He WANTS to bless us. 

How tenacious are we in the spirit? Have we let go to a sense of nothing-ness, or hopelessness? If we have let go, we need to go hang back on again. If we gave up hope, go back to where we set it down. God is still right there, where we left Him. Struggle the whole thing through. Don't let go of God! The blessing IS coming.  When we wrestle ALL THE WAY through the thang, we become re-defined! Anybody else need this today?

I do. I need to wrestle out the deep issues. I may have been firmly grabbed and lifted from massive pits and curses to be redeemed, healed, chosen, and a breaker of chains and sin. But there are still issues I struggle with. Issues deeper & crazier that I may ever show signs of dealing with. And I NEED to know that God is going to bless me if I continue wrestling them out face to face with Him. When He wins, when He kicks butt on my behalf (not "if", but "WHEN"), that means I win. Automatically. Instantly. Victoriously. And permanently. Amen!!! Whew. Let the sweaty, tear-stained mat hold up a while longer while I ask the Spirit for a second wind to begin another round. And another. And another..............

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